Went back to the gym for the first time in a week. The good news is, I can do more reps with more weight and longer warm-up! The bad news is my legs are quivering piles of sadness and I had to rush the workout today a little bit so I could do it and also shower before the daycare closed. More good news is, I'm going for a walk with my BFF and kiddo tonight, so yay.

I think I need to take a physical note pad with me from now on. I'm starting to try new stuff and it's harder to track. Today I'm gonna post in order since I did the rowing machine in the middle.

-6minute treadmill warm-up
-2sets 10 reps 1st at 55 2nd at70 lbs leg extensions
-2 sets 10 reps 1st at 70, 2nd at 85 lbs seated leg curls
-2sets 10 reps 80lbs leg presses
-5 minutes on the rowing machine
-1 set, 10reps, 130 lbs, leg presses!!
-1 set, 10 reps100 lbs, leg curls!
-1 set, 10 reps,80 lbs leg extensions!!

I have soreness in places I didn't even know muscles existed! Success :D

Clothing starting to get a little bit big!!

Super excited about that first noticeable sign of progress.

Too tired to elaborate so, today I did:

-7:30 treadmill warm-up
-3 (yes! THREE) sets 10 reps of leg curls and leg extensions, all at 70 lbs! Yes! I think I'm gonna die but yeeeeessss!
-8 minutes on the rowing machine.

I felt a little nauseous and light headed on the way home but it was worth it!

2 in 7,000: can I be one of them?

Only made it to the gym twice this week, thanks to an especially fussy kiddo and also me being stupid and getting very little sleep. Therefore today I did an all over workout and I feel pretty good! I was still very tired though and it showed.

-6 minutes warm-up on treadmill
-2sets, 85 lbs, 10 reps, lat pulldowns (oh god an I feeling it btw)
-2sets, 10 reps, one at 70lbs and one at 55, leg extensions
-5 minutes on the rowing machine
-2sets, 10 reps, 85 lbs leg presses.
-stretching, walking to cool down

I got very discouraged yesterday after reading an article that mentioned it's normal for people to lose 10-16 pounds and keep it off, but only 2 in 7,000 lose large amounts of weight and keep it off. Those that do keep it off are very driven and focus on maintaining. After talking with my husband I feel better, though, and maybe I can be one of those 2 someday :3. I'll never know unless I try!

Didn't go to the gym on Friday or yesterday, as both days involved either taking Momo to or picking her up from my dad.

Today I did:
-10 (!!) Minute warm-up on the treadmill. I credit the techno mix I was listening to for this.
-2sets, 10reps, 70lbs seated row
-2sets, 10reps, 60 lbs leg curls (I hate that machine. I'm sticking to presses and eventually squats, I think.
-2sets, 10reps, 80lbs, leg extensions.
-swam on the high end of moderate for 20 minutes

I've noticed my exercises so far focus more on my upper body. I think I really need to step it up with the legs (har har). Fit thighs are good fat burners!

The Rant Heard Round The World.

This is from last Thursday, but I think it needs to be on this blog so I can look back on it someday and feel extra triumphant.

Uh oh, rant time again! This time it's on a topic I joked about happening to me...and then it did! 

Got to the gym at about 4:10. Scan my pass , start walking over to the daycare. Dude in lobby intercepts me: "Ooooh man, it's hard to lose that babyweight, isn't it? That's a big journey ahead of you, good luck !" (Note: it happened just that abruptly, like the Douche School of Negging Devotees sent an assassin or something)
Me: *tight smile* "well, that's why I'm here!"
Dude: "yeah, I hope so." (Wtf is that by the way?!)

So to my credit, I managed to sign Momo in and make it almost the whole way to the locker room before crying. Yep, it made me cry. I stripped down to my bathing suit and swam angrily until i finished swimming halfassedly (I am pretty tired though) and dwelling on how I shoulda punched that guy in his face. Or at least not cried. Or had a better comeback .

But guess what. That IS why I'm there, in part. If only that dude knew that I'm my own harshest critic, and I don't need his "advice" to motivate me. In fact, even two weeks ago, I would've left out of shame. I wouldn't have come back, either.

But too bad. This isn't about anyone else. Today, I finally proved that to myself for real real. I can sulk in the pool in my fatty swimsuit, and that's fine, because at least I'm there.

That IS why I'm there, after all.

Asshole.

it's a revolution, i suppose~

Feeling more in the game today! Today was one of my shortest workouts (just shy of half an hour) but I really pushed that whole time.

Today was:
-5 minute cardio warm up
-2 sets, 15 reps, 80lbs leg extensions
-2 sets, 15 reps, 65lbs leg curls (barely, BARELY made it the second 15)
-5 solid minutes of hard work on the rowing machine, mostly to keep my heart rate up while I stretched my legs a bit
-2 sets, 15 reps, 80 lbs leg press. Again, barely made it to the end of the second set.
-stretching, cooldown

I somehow managed to run to my car carrying the baby because it started raining. That almost knocked me out, haha.

I'm not surprised but am pleasantly happy with how much my own music helps me. I'll have to work on a lifting playlist.

Discouraged, but not giving up.

I kinda mailed it in today. I'm still tired from yesterday, and I also made the mistake of weighing myself before working out. I haven't lost a single pound in three weeks. I think what this means is 1) building muscle and 2) I need to really, really not weigh myself again until I see some kind of change. This is about fitness, not weight, but it's also about fat loss. I don't want to become scale-obsessed.

Anyhow, today I did:
-5 minute cardio warm-up
-20 reps, 30lbs lat pulldowns, mostly to work out the soreness from yesterday
-2sets, 15 reps, 40lbs leg extensions. Starting the ugly process of working out my injured knee.
-swam moderately for 20 minutes

Still , better than nothing. I think half of this battle is establishing a routine. I can worry about pushing myself more once I've been keeping to my routine for a month or so, I think.

I'm back! My goal this week is to go to the gym every weekday. I think I can make this happen!

I'm also slowly settling on a routine, which will probably be something like:
Monday: rowing machine, arms
Tuesday & Thursday: full body weight circuit with lighter weights (mostly to work out soreness), swimming
Wednesday: rowing machine, chest, back
Friday: rowing machine, legs
Everyday also includes a 5-10 minute warm-up and cooldown

Today I did kind of a mishmash of arms and back, which was:
-6:30 cardio warm-up! It took me longer than usual to get sweaty and loose, which made me happy
-10 minutes on the rowing machine. Bliss !
-2 sets, 10 reps, 80 lbs lat pulldowns (working towards doing pull ups but I think this is more beneficial for now)
-2 sets, 10 reps, 60 lbs, tricep dips. Could probably have done higher weight but eh.
-3.5 more minutes on the rowing machine to ensure exhaustion, shaky arms
-2 minute cooldown so I wouldn't pick Momo up gasping for air

Woo!

Didn't go to the gym today, sadly. Rough night with the baby last night, and feeling introspective and tired today.

However, I'm confident this won't stop me from going tomorrow! I also attempted sustained planks today, with sad results: I can only hold a decent plank form for about 12 seconds. Ah well, that's why I work out.